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When words and/or music flow beautifully and speak to or from my heart.
When words and/or music flow beautifully and speak to or from my heart.
Have you ever felt like the circumstances of life were weighing so heavily that it felt like literally...physically... you couldn't even take another step? Yeah - maybe you are saying, "Been there. Done that. Got the T-Shirt...make that ten T-shirts...wait, make that the Platinum T-Shirt...no...no...I'm LIVING in the T-Shirt"!
Sometimes, the weights seem to pile on one after another. Maybe one gets lifted and a heavier one seems to be added. I've felt that way on many occasions...recently even...many times over. Then when I begin to think about the weight(s), I start criticizing myself for focusing on them and feeling sad, in despair, anxious etc, because I know that living in those emotions isn't the life God has for me. Then, my self-criticism can quickly turn into condemnation. Then - my mind reels some more and says, no condemnation! My thoughts go from one thing to the next, and none of it is a healthy place to stay in.
In the heat of the battle, a spiritual battle taking place in the mind, constructive conviction sometimes gives way to destructive self-talk and self-condemnation. Self-condemnation is a path Satan wants to take me on so I won't find the blessings God has for me in persevering. Constructive conviction can help me make changes that ultimately strengthen me and give glory to God.
This time your heart said it's had enough
Sick and tired of everything that's so messed up
You don't wanna move on just playing games
Praying hard somehow that your life will change
When you feel like you don't know what to do
Stuck inside this maze you can't go through
That verse. It's so frequently quoted that it often loses meaning and impact. Have you noticed the words before and after it? The Lord shares this verse of hope to his people after telling them they will endure many, many trials for many, many years! UGH! Now, I KNOW my challenges aren't as bad as what the captured Israelites endured in Babylon!
His kind voice reminds me as I read further, "Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. You will seek Me and find Me when you search for me with all your heart." -Jeremiah 29:12-13
By taking the time to focus on the truths of God and the words He has shared with the people whom he has loved, I can choose a different path for my thought pattern. I can remind myself that by calling on Him and praying to Him, He will hear me. Not only that, but I WILL FIND Him when I seek Him with all my heart. In this process, I can go from destructive self-talk to words of truth and promises.
Fear, sadness, anxiety and despair. These feelings are real - but they are not the end! I have to remind myself of this. They do not have to become reality.
These walls around you are caving in
And your life seems like it is wearing thin
And your hope is drowning in despair
It looks like you're not going anywhere
Step inside this heart and then you'll see
Such a love that is so amazing.
These words were very real for me several months ago when I reached another point of feeling like I couldn't go any further. God used this song to speak to me when I needed it most. I had felt like I was pushing and pushing through and trusting God to provide, yet I just didn't have the strength to "do" anymore. I reached a point where I couldn't listen to anymore of the Christian radio station and turned it off. My mind was going into unhealthy territory, right where the enemy wanted me to go. I felt extremely alone, unloved and incapable to persevere.
It was silent in the vehicle, from the the radio not playing, for all of about 5 minutes. But, the multiple children in the back continued their fighting and screaming at each other so loudly and unrelentingly that I turned the radio on FULL BLAST. My intent was to change the atmosphere in a shocking way to get them to pause the fighting for a minute. My little plan backfired. Ahem...
Honestly, I don't recall what the children did next or if they even stopped fighting for the next week. What I remember clearly - was HOW LOUD and exact the words were that played in my ear at the time I needed the reminder the most.
DON'T GIVE UP
Help is surely on its way
And don't give up
And the dark is breaking in to day
And just keep on moving through these storms
And soon enough you'll find the door
Just don't give up
Oh, and don't give up
Yeah - really. Don't give up. As simple, and hard, as that. I felt like God was reminding me to keep on going, to keep on trusting and to keep on praying and seeking him. I did not have the strength, but He provided in small ways that helped me get through.
Sometimes help comes in ways that we don't recognize, but it's there. Sometime it comes in the form of a bible verse we've heard many times over. Sometimes it comes in the form of a phone call or interruption at just the right time which causes a disruption of unhealthy thought patterns. Sometimes it's in the words of a sermon, or in a book, or from a friend and it encourages us and reminds us of God's truths and promises.
Help is surely on its way, but if we aren't looking for it we might miss it. By looking for it I mean preparing our hearts to receive what God has for us - even when we feel he has nothing for us or that what he has is something we don't want. When our hearts are turned to the Father and seeking Him and desiring
His will, we are able to more clearly hear and recognize His voice over
the din of life's circumstances.
For me - in the above example - help came in a reminder not to give up. Then, I had to begin to find ways to trade the thoughts of despair into hope. The only way to do the that is by spending time in God's word, the Bible, and in prayer so that I could hear His voice and hear the truths which I needed to replace the many lying whispers. Not only that, I choose to focus my thoughts on those truths.
Finding hope - in seeking Him and His truths. Not giving up.
("Don't Give Up" lyrics by Calling Glory)
For me - in the above example - help came in a reminder not to give up. Then, I had to begin to find ways to trade the thoughts of despair into hope. The only way to do the that is by spending time in God's word, the Bible, and in prayer so that I could hear His voice and hear the truths which I needed to replace the many lying whispers. Not only that, I choose to focus my thoughts on those truths.
Finding hope - in seeking Him and His truths. Not giving up.
"Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen." - Hebrews 11:1
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